#49

Another sleepless night with a familiar dream

Every night waking to some horrible scene

It's always you who haunts me it seems

I feel like I'm an adult, but act like a teen

I've known it was the best for both of us

That doesn't mean I'm content with this

All because some lack of your trust

Now I only think of our final kiss

Like a book buried in the depths

I'm the treasure you haven't discovered yet

I love you so much it makes me inept

You've turned your head like we've never met

#48

It's that moment of uncomfortable silence

Staring into each others eyes with no words

Afraid of how things will come out

Or a complete lack of words in this moment

When they were so carefully thought out

Everything is simple until face to face

Everything then breaks down and you're lost

The feeling in the pit of your stomach

You know what's right, but you can't do it

So you suffer until you go and suffer until the end

#47

These are the tears I couldn't let you see

As we sat alone and talked until past three

A haze of words, little would be remembered

And I'm left with no idea what to do

The worst though, is that I still fucking smell you.

#46

A faceless statue in an abandoned Colosseum

Sixteen columns hold the open ceiling

Travelers from some place unknown

Look to discover what once had been known

Centuries ago flesh clad in iron caused the ground to tremble

Today only the ghosts, memories, and bone remain.

#45

In three hours time has flowed

Like a river halted by a dam

Able to clearly see the depths

A tiny fish seemingly glides by

Two birds in a nearby tree sing

A frog jumps in causing ripples

The serene scene changes often

Eyes must be open in order to see

The river flows gently still into a sea

This must be captured, bottled, for times

Those rough times when the river has overflown

Moving rapidly perhaps, where it's dangerous

Always though calmer waters are upstream

A platypus swims playfully in solitude

An otter floats on his back playing with rocks

A swam sits on a bank alone

Something floats downstream in the distance

A bright day is ahead, not a cloud in sight.

#44

I feel this may not be for me

Every night we don't talk I worry

I'm a mess of cluttered emotions

Rising and falling based on you

I know how you feel

Or at least how you did not so long ago

I try to realize them

And know nothing has changed

But I'm too irrational

And can't stop my gut feeling.

#43

Losing grip, I see the end coming

You say you've lost yourself

Just when I'm feeling found

Now I'm the one feeling like I've lost

I thought it was finally real

But the familiar is coming near

A lightbulb burnt up

In a flash bright

The next dark.

#42

There's such a thing as too much love

Too much affection

Too much caring

At least that's what I've learned from today's society.

Who is to know such things?

There's no way to measure

Not in grams or ounces.

Perhaps there's a scale somewhere, or a meter.

If this is what society has come to

It highly explains why it's in shambles

If even love has a measure of too much

Then why is it acceptable for hate to be abundant?

Human relationships have become a game

A push pull from both sides struggling to keep the other in check

Life is nothing more than one long race

I'm content not being first when no one ever finishes.

#41

Everything was cryptic but when you spoke. Like a line from a song you smiled. Everything was alright.

#40

I've never wanted things to work out more

I'm scared though I'll push you away

Possibly ruin things, or become a bore

I'm awkward around you because I can't think right

So I say whatever comes to my head

Like when we said goodbye that first night

I have the best intentions and a good heart

When you're with me I smile wide

The same as when I think of you, miles apart

I see the potential in us though we're new

You've opened my eyes wide already

I'm very happy to be with you.

#39

Swaying in the bed, you rest upon my shoulder your head.

A soft kiss on your cheek, it's only been two weeks.

Radiating your skin shines, as does my face with your hand in mine.

Enter my mind, you've made an imprint of some kind.

The impression will stick.

#38

Jumping into the pool

A wave of colors splash

The deck is wet

The deck is wet

#37

On the edge, teetering. Nothing is certain.

Dark clouds converge overhead. The sun is blocked.

Rays of light shine through struggling to be seen.

In one moment the sky opens. Torrential rains.

Nothing is safe from the downpour. Trees sway in the wind.

In the distance the sun is seen trailing.

I grasp your hand and know everything will be fine.

#36

A discrete change into the unknown that is surely to change the facade of any mountain view.

#35

A restless face upon the human race,
A web of stories all a mixed tale of fiction and fact

Alone, together, in a dark room,
Some things are too soon while others should never come.

The mind changes quickly how can you trust it?
The mind changes often, I can't trust myself.

Am I alone in this? There are billions of people,
But there's really only one.

It depends on the mirrored view you see.
One day though, we'll all be free.

#34

A ripple in a lake, a gust of wind in the fields
A brilliant outtake with exuberant yields

A smile fades as do the days, silently turning as if searching for something
Three days gone and still no change, and I feel as if something is rearranged

Each day I'm spending with you, my back becomes sore
I'll travel alone for now, I can't handle this weight anymore

I've found loneliness in you, company in solitude
One more line and I'm through, pacing a room with a delicate hue.

#33

Time has made me weary
Nothing has ever been consistent
Nor has it ever made much sense

Time has made me tired
Unable to withstand what I once had
Nor can I keep up like I once could

Time has changed me
I'm no exception it happens to everyone
and no one is ever the same as they once were

#32

That needle I could never find
Was you in the haystack

A thousand hours lost
Looking for a way back

Hours away, miles today
I've come to rest

No more searching
No more running

I'm sitting here now
The time is yours.

#31

It's gone, but the memory remains
Like a fossil long since buried
Resurfaced with a hidden meaning
Oh please tell me what does it contain?

#30

I couldn't think of how I wanted to express myself. I really couldn't. A figment became a large reality. I've never wanted anything as much as this, but I've let it go. I have to anyway. Thoughts fill my mind. Literally consume. I'm going to lose that file. I'm going to erase those pictures. I'm going to have a spotless mind.

#29

It was a beautiful lie while it lasted yes?
All of the moments I reminisce
I tried to forget for some bliss
In the end it was simply a mask.

A moment captured in a picture
Frozen in eternity
Wishes of it, you and me
But something tells me to let it be.

#28

It's times like these in which I reminisce
I recall your face, lips, and dress
Sometimes I sort of miss them
And others I wish had never happened
Alas it's been done, time is gone
Somewhere that situation is happening
In some other dimension
It makes me smile, it makes me sad
The only thing that really crosses my mind
Is wondering if I cross yours?

I guess this has been done before, yes?
I interject then, and must switch it.
For it's a bit too cliche
And everyone knows it's god awful
To be cliche, isn't it?
I suppose I wouldn't have written this
Had I thought to tell you everything
Oh shame on me!
I bought a time machine to rectify this
See you 5 months ago.