#52

I clicked around aimlessly for hours,
Distracting myself
I clicked around for hours more,
Before I could hold back no longer

Things were said,
We didn't mean any of it
We're just two frustrated people

I laid down for bed,
Tears in my eyes
I never wanted this
Where did the good go?

They always had their priorities straight, a shot of whiskey and a six pack above all else, if they were drunk enough than nothing else mattered. They would have forgotten to eat if sharp pangs hadn't reminded them on occasion.

#51

A quiet panic never shown
Important lessons never learned
How would you have known
You were always on your own.

#50

And you weren't invited to my breakdown
But you were surely the only one to attend
I was able to contain my insanity
Simply for a public facade
When we both knew I was gone

Apparition! You are the ghost
My memories and dreams haunt me
You're the starring role
I've found myself hiding in the dark
Soon to be swallowed into the hole

Self medicated went nowhere
Unmedicated gave me more illusions
Sifting through the papers in the dark
I can't see you've said, you can't see me scream
I don't need to see, I know these verses so well

#testhold

From Above we Sit on the Stars, While Watching the Lights of the Cars

#49

Another sleepless night with a familiar dream

Every night waking to some horrible scene

It's always you who haunts me it seems

I feel like I'm an adult, but act like a teen

I've known it was the best for both of us

That doesn't mean I'm content with this

All because some lack of your trust

Now I only think of our final kiss

Like a book buried in the depths

I'm the treasure you haven't discovered yet

I love you so much it makes me inept

You've turned your head like we've never met

#48

It's that moment of uncomfortable silence

Staring into each others eyes with no words

Afraid of how things will come out

Or a complete lack of words in this moment

When they were so carefully thought out

Everything is simple until face to face

Everything then breaks down and you're lost

The feeling in the pit of your stomach

You know what's right, but you can't do it

So you suffer until you go and suffer until the end